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There are some people that wander through life wondering what their purpose is. What were they put on earth for? They search and search only to find nothing.

I was lucky.

For me, I always knew. I didn't need to hunt for it or follow a hunch. I was certain I was meant to be a mommy.

When I was little and played the 'What do I want to be when I grow up?' game, I was always a mom with tons of kids. Rocking a little one in a handmade glider, day trips to the zoo would precede camp-outs in our backyard with s'mores and cuddles under the stars. I saw no other path for me. All I had to do was find that special guy and everything would fall right into place.

The moment I met my husband, I knew he was the one. We were in college and it was as close to love at first sight as you could have gotten. Two very different people...from very different backgrounds...but we immediately fit.

He was everything that I had ever wanted...kind and handsome and smart...but strong enough to be my man. He was, without a doubt, my other half. Once we married, I knew it would be only a matter of time before we started to hear the pitter-patter of little feet. I couldn't wait. Everything was working out exactly how I had always wanted.

There was just one thing that I didn't figure into my perfect plans.

Sometimes things didn't work out the way we planned.

Life will often throw you a curve ball and it is up to us to decide how to handle it. My flawlessly mapped out life took a detour and I couldn't help but feel that it was all my fault.

One night and one awful mistake that I regretted more than anything.

The mistake haunted me, and now I had to face the reality that I was being punished for what I had done. Rightfully so; I did a horrible thing that I would never forgive myself for.

And my husband. My sweet, darling husband. He was always standing by my side, making me laugh and trying to give me everything that I didn't deserve. The secret I kept from him and what it was doing to our life was literally eating away at me, piece by piece. He would be beyond destroyed if he ever found out. I couldn't ever let that happen.

He could never, ever know.

So, for now, I would keep up the brave face and leave my secret buried deep within The Hills of Twilight.